practicewithlisa

Chogyam Rinpoche said that. “There is no cure in the up and down.”

Here I am four years later, completed kundalini training, teacher training at Sukha following teaching there for three years, massage school, yin yoga training, a year of college at Texas State, I got engaged and over a year of therapy that stemmed from the trauma from my skin. SO MUCH has happened.

I feel like I should I know how to treat it this time around. I should be ready. I should embrace it and not resist or shame myself. I won’t be embarrassed and I’ll ask for help when I need it.
But it seems like deep down I haven’t grown at all. All those things are still present for me.

I am ashamed. I am embarrassed. I don’t want help even though I feel myself slipping every day. I am definitely resisting my current experience. I have horrible self denigrating thoughts again. It’s so difficult to do anything. I don’t have a solution and I don’t know what to tell people because what I used to tell people was that I already went through TSW. So what is it now?

Does it literally take four years to clear from your system?

I think we have to rest in the unknowing. Which in our case, is the most uncomfortable, scary feeling. I’m exhausted from fighting my own energy lately so I don’t have much to share.

If you are going through TSW, just please drink lots of water and take deep breaths and don’t obsess over what will fix it. We don’t require “fixing”.